Kendra G. (kendra123)

I changed my mind, I was planning to rejoin the albuquerque fandom in July or August but..



Since I still remember the bad memories I had here and people are trying to drag the drama when its clearly drama-free




I dont think im gonna rejoin here anymore.


I made a decision not to, because it will ruin my life more.



If only if I redesigned Mimick Machine, Gerald, and other characters if I got the chance to..




I was planning to bring them back by actually making it my oc instead of just some f*cka** recolored versions of mm, but I genuinely dont wanna disappoint Ari and Dee. I keep thinking about it for some reason.




Yk, I really miss my albuquerque arc, but at what f*cking cost.



I also miss EYKINO aswell. It was cancelled and I gave mimick and gerald a horrible backstory about why there like this. Not all Villains can get killed in every movie franchise, they can get a chance to change their ways, and more.




And Sammy was also my favorite albuquerque oc, not just Emo Machine.




And even Mimick too. For some reason. Its that damn iconic face he makes when hes scared, frightened, and being dramatic.





I hate my life, yk? It feels like I've been treated like a doll. Im not a toy or a machine, im a HUMAN being. I do not like being used. I dont wanna go back but it keeps getting on my way. I dont wanna go back. Theres no going back, yk? I just wanna change my content into somewhere else. I wish I made a fan song about my cancelled series but too bad it wouldn't happened, somewhere.





If I got a chance to make an indie show or a franchise, then im afraid that imma get the worse fandom to ever exist. I dont want to be treated like sh*t. It feels like im a shadow and no one cared about me. I just wanna go back. But I dont, I have negative thoughts about myself and my hyperfixation on MM now. If I lost interest on MM, then I wouldn't use my mm plush anymore, What am I gonna do now if I keep remembering.






Life really sucks, I just wanna redeem myself and actually become who I was. I wanna revert back to my 2022 self, but the doxxing gets worse. Now I will forever keep my identity hidden thanks to the internet. Youtube ruined me, and so does the internet culture. I hate being harassed, and I hate being doxxed, I still remember it. I had fun on the albuquerque fandom until it gets ruined. Its all my fault. I wish I never continued to make these f*cka** recolored ocs. But I dont listen. I feel like im not original and creative enough. I wish I was never been born. I lost my grandparents, I lost my old friends, I lost everything. I wish I never got access to the internet and focus on my goddamn life. Ive been on my tablet 24/7 all day, and im tired of it. What's the point of continuing when I still remember the bad memories I got from the albuquerque fandom.






... thats why I dont think i will come back to the fandom, I really don't think so. I want to bring my characters I made back, but.. I dont wanna ruin myself more. Im such a miserable girl. I want to stop remembering the bad things I had back then. Make fun of me all you want, but I dont care if you apologize to me, you still do the same thing. I hate these friends I have, I suck at making friends now. It feels like my so called friends are using me. No wonder why they do this behind my back, dox me, and even talk sh*t about me behind my back. I want my old friends back. I want to go back to where I f*cking was. I wish i never made billy recolored ocs. I want to entirely remake all of my recolored ocs but I will be tired by now. I hate myself now. I feel corny right now. No wonder why the rooms community hates me and wants me dead. The same goes for the albuquerque fandom. It feels like everyone wants me dead. Its always the same thing, yk? I hate losing motivation alot. It feels like hell.






Btw, I want to thank you guys for caring about me, being a good friend, and I would love to thank you for being nice to me and making good things during the albuquerque fandom. You all mean alot to me. Nothing is the same anymore. It really is. I will enjoy being a kid while it lasts now. I wish I never made my youtube account now. Everything that people say is right about me. Yk? I genuinely hate humanity so much. (Vent)

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Kendra G. (kendra123)

Does everyone remember this trend?

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