A raw documentation of the unraveling of self. A space for those who are tired of the well-finessed facade and ready to reclaim their humanity. Through weekly monologues and clips from live meetings, I share a dose of truth and sanity for those navigating the collapse of the illusory self and the return to our original innocence.

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Suzanne Chang

Beyond the personal self...
There is no birth, no death
Just the simplicity of this
That which can not be named or known
No person that can be seen
No object
No judgement
No stance
Nowhere to go
Nowhere to land

Everything is okay
Everything is welcome
You are free to be as you are
You don't have to be a specific way
Nothing defines you
Nothing is known
Nothing is actually happening

This may reveal the effects of separation more fully
And this isn't a bad thing
That's normal
And it's still not separate from this

This is so much more unknowable than you can ever imagine
So much more vast than you can ever contain
This will break your heart wide open
Until there's no ability to perceive you and the world

All words, actions, feelings, silence, movement, thought, no-thought
All of it is the same
There's no difference
No edge

This is uncaused contentment
Unearned fulfillment
Peace beyond reason
The only true rest

...

Weekend retreat: online option
Friday - Sunday: March 8-10 EST
Create your own cozy retreat at home
Info: suzannechang.net/retreat/

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“…My story in time is seen as a dream
As if it never really happened
This change in perception doesn’t come easily
The death of me is the loss of everything I thought I had and was
The greatest heartbreak you will ever go through
A break-up with life itself
A horrific and beautiful love story of what could have been and never was
The world loses its reality
It becomes clearer that everything just is as it is,
rather than how I think it is or know it to be
I do not know anything
And only then is there a true lightness of being…”

Join me for an in-person weekend retreat at Quietude Retreat Center, Black Mountain, NC.
It'd be lovely to see you there.
Everything is welcome in this space, you are free to be as you are. There will be a blend of: expressions of the unknown, addressing the challenges/relief and energetic changes during the death of self, Q&A, silence, and we shall see what else... Things will be brewing and refining in the meantime, so there will most likely be spontaneous expressions in the moment.

Find more info here: suzannechang.net/retreat/


P.S. An email notification has been sent out to those that signed up to my mailing list, but I do not think it was sent to everyone. I'm still learning a few things about bulk emails and these kinks will be ironed out.

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Last UNRECORDED Intimate Meeting
Saturday, November 18 @ 11am - 1pm EST

This is an opportunity to expose or bring to light those things that may not be so easy to express in other settings. This is a space of non-judgement where everything is welcome. There are no silly questions or comments.

People are welcome to stay longer after the meeting and continue to chat as long as someone is willing to be the host after I leave (I will ask before leaving). As the host, you will end the meeting after 30mins or whenever it feels right.

Find more info here: suzannechang.net/meetings/
Or join through Patreon: www.patreon.com/SuzanneNonduality

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Meetings are resuming after a little break!
First meeting is tomorrow: Sunday, Sept. 10 @ 11am - 1pm EST
It'd be wonderful to see you there. ♡
Join through Patreon: www.patreon.com/SuzanneNonduality

2 years ago | [YT] | 24

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Wonderful conversation with Trey Carland ♡

No more loss, no more gain... just this
What I thought I wanted was not really real...
Grieving the story... there can be absolute beauty in pure sadness
Akin to a psychological death before the body dies
The unveiling of total freedom

Listen here:
podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/trey-carland/episo…

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I like this painting cause it reminds me of this deep longing for something other than this...

You have never been far from what you seek
Because you are that already
Not as a thing or entity
Not as a feeling or state
Not as a position or place
But simply as everything
You who you imagine yourself to be is not actual reality
Reality was never known
It was never this or that
There was never anywhere to land
The need to land somewhere can just vanish
And what's revealed
Is simply everything
That which you are

May 20, 2023 || 11AM - 1PM ET
SATURDAY INTIMATE MEETING
Unrecorded for privacy & comfort
Feel free to express and share
Would love for you to join!
Inside or outside Patreon: suzannechang.net/patreon/

P.S. This is a postcard I gave to Zubin & Margaret at the end of my visit ♡

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Here's a lovely conversation with Violet
What it's like to lose everything...

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I had the pleasure of spending a week with Zubin and his family and this is what unfolded...

I immediately felt so welcomed and at home and just wanted to get to know them before we both felt comfortable and compelled to have this conversation toward the end of my stay. We were all amazed at what happened. It was really a joy to be a part of their story and I'm super grateful for both Zubin and Margaret. ♡ And huge thank you to Angelo Dilullo for making the connection. Deeply appreciated. ♡

If I seem like a jerk it's because Zubin deserves it 😂 ... just kidding... We just had a lot of fun joking around the majority of the time.

Unedited version with Zubin's beautiful wife, Margaret, can be seen on Patreon: www.patreon.com/SuzanneNonduality

Enjoy! ♡



PLEASE NOTE: This is a unique and spontaneous story and it will be completely different for everyone

3 years ago | [YT] | 39

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Lovely conversation with Hale Dwoskin.
Enjoy ♡

3 years ago | [YT] | 28

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IMPORTANT: Beware of scammers who use youtube profile pics to create duplicate accounts, usually they won't have much posted on their channel.
I would never give out my number, let alone any other contact info, and ask you to contact me through youtube comments.
Example highlighted in pink.
Please be cautious.
Thanks ♡

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