𝓭𝓶𝔀𝓱 - Invidious

forever grateful.

Hey, I don't expect each of my old homie to read this

But whoever is, I really hope you're doing well. Mentally, physically and most importantly socially.

I remember spending time with you on this little platform. Spending hours with my room door locked, when I was nothing but a seed. Small, unsure and hidden. 🌱 yes, I am talking ab this one. Then you came into my life and gave me light, like sunlight after rain. Aaaaand then slowly I started to open up, growing roots of confidence and strength. Your support was like water that kept me going, even when I felt weak. And over time, I didn’t just survive, I bloomed into something better, like a flower growing, just because of you. Basically when I first started using yt on a daily basis, it was covid time. I was bored and lost at home; inside four weird, printed coloured walls, kinda depressed. As a blink, I would try to watch every blackpink video I could find. This led to me finding my golmatol bro's channel.

Lol it's @dontmesswithjisoo , the "aaloo" guy from whom I got my channel name and also my entire personality from. This dude is basically someone who shaped me. That dumb and gloomy who had nothing to do in the boring days of covid lockdown, had found a will to smile every day despite the void. This dude used to remind me to complete my online class assignments, in a bum ahh comment section. I loved his videos. He was also the person who inspired me to start my very own channel. I still remember how he supported me on the exact day I posted something on my channel for the first time. This guy promoted this lame channel sm that it got 100+ subscribers in js a day. Insane work. Also, this stupid guy helped me grow by treating me like his own sister, even if it was just through a screen. Calling him bhaiya was my favourite thing to do ngl. He made me feel seen and loved, inspired me to be a better person. I used to flood the comment section by spamming comments every time he used to upload any random thingy. The fact that he used to reply to each comment with his lame jokes make me realize how fun of a guy he was. And dw I did read his post, he said that he finished 1st year of college. Find someone who's prouder, I'll wait 🖐🏿 okay now jokes apart I actually miss this guy, he will always be my Bhai -happiness (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠)

Now talking about my best friend, Yashwi @yshvxx , She is the sweetest girl ever. She's basically an angel. She showed me what a good friendship really is. She's someone I’ve never physically met, but still feels close in every way that matters. We started as randoms in dmwj bhaiya's comment section, just small talks that didn’t mean much at first, but slowly turned into something constant. Even through a screen, she understood me in ways ppl in real life could never. She motivated me in times I felt worthless, and always stood up for me. Distance and a screen didn't really matter to me, all I needed was her. My Yashwi. I really hope she's doing well. The thing I loved the most ab her is that she used to be the kind of friend who could make me smile with her single comment, and she stayed even when to conversations went silent. It feels strange saying someone so far away can feel like they're the closest to you and your heart, but that's how it exactly felt with Yashwi. She remains a part of me forever.

Not only these two, but alot of people made me enjoy every day inside my small and dirty room, even when the world outside was suffering, dying. Feels strange to think about it this way, but it's true. Arpita, Ren, Mansi I really miss you guys. And to be honest, I miss those days. I wish I could go back. I miss each and every one SO MUCH.

Talking ab my very own personal life at the moment, I'm studying, tryna catch up to my old "top student" academic reputation. I did suffer alot last year. My desire to become "skinny" led to me being anemic and developing an eating disorder. But I'm better now. Don't get me started on the dramas with my irls. But I am glad to say that I do have good friends, few but the best. That's very much it.

Alrighty now I think this is getting too long, so I'll wrap it up for now. I just wanna say thank you to every single person who had made me feel so blessed, even if it was for a short period of time. It was really the peak time. So I am so grateful and thankful for each and everyone.

Thanks for taking your time to read this, Take care of yourself, I love you. Always. FIGHTINGGGGG!!! 🤍🫧⭐