Lalita Janette

I couldn’t look directly at his body. It felt like doing so would confirm a final truth that my mind was desperately trying to avoid.

My husband covered most of him, especially the part that took the impact of the hit, leaving only his feet and tail visible so my mind could stop building false hope that maybe it wasn’t him.

That image of his little paws is stuck in my head.

He should have been running like he always used to, not lying there lifeless.

My husband placed him in a box and covered him with soil, and I still cannot bear to look at it because it would mean accepting that this really happened.

Part of me is still clinging to imaginary hope, thinking somehow he will come back, and that we somehow mistook that body for him.

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4 weeks ago | [YT] | 2

Lalita Janette

Thank everyone who send me kind words and support but there is no miracle … that i wished

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Lalita Janette

What was never fully lived by others
doesn’t get to define my life

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5 months ago | [YT] | 0

Lalita Janette

I see the beauty again after being trapped in anger, envy, and the feeling of being left behind for so long.

Today, I see the beauty in what once hurt me.

I see the beauty in what I left behind.

I see the beauty in the ordinary things in front of me.

I wonder if this moment will last.

A little attachment arises, and a little fear follows.

Then a quiet whisper reminds me:

You have been through it all.

Trust that whatever comes, you can handle it.

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Lalita Janette

December 8, 2024 marks the first snow day in Andorra—and an unforgettable milestone in my life.
I have completed the first draft of my novel, Come Back to Me, Lalita.
A total of 142,797 words—roughly 500 pages—poured out of me, just in time to present this as a gift for my 44th birthday today.

It is, without a doubt, the best birthday gift I have ever given myself, and I am so incredibly proud.

My journey as a writer began in 2018, born from heartbreak.
The pain left a crack in my heart wide enough to let in a call to create.
I set off on my journey with a shit ton of insecurity.
Not a day passed when I didn’t doubt myself, questioning whether I’d ever finish what I had begun.
Yet, a quiet, persistent voice inside me kept pushing back against that resistance.

In 2023, an old, unresolved problem surfaced, leaving my heart troubled and restless.
Seeking answers, I decided to use psychedelic medicine for the first time.
One experience led to another, and before I knew it, it used me.

What began as a curiosity transformed into a painful and profound, consuming journey.
This was the genesis of my novel’s story—a psychedelic journey spirals into a psychiatric nightmare, diving into the depths of the shadow self and emerging in a powerful transformation.

Living through those experiences was the hardest part.
Writing them was a way to make sense of it all.
This process has taught me that I am capable of more than I ever believed.
I thank every part of myself—the broken, the healing, and the whole—for bringing me this far.

Though this feels like a crowning moment, I know it’s just the beginning.
I’m ready to bring something into the world that no one has yet seen from me.
I am in this, and I have what it takes to see it through.

December 9, 2024
Lalita Janette

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1 year ago | [YT] | 1

Lalita Janette

I finally took the leap and invested in bringing the character from my novel Good Girls Cry, Bad Girls Moan to life through animation.

For a long time, fear held me back—fear of financially investing in my dream. I kept wondering: What if the money is wasted? What if I end up looking foolish for investing in something that doesn’t succeed?

But the moment I saw her come alive, my heart skipped a beat. I knew I had made the right decision.

It is an honor to bring you to life, to experience your journey, to witness your highs and lows, to see you in both light and darkness, and to watch you heal.

Lalita Janette, you are ready to be seen.

Let me introduce you to her:

Lalita Janette is a living character from my novel Good Girls Cry, Bad Girls Moan. She was me, and I was her. She longed for love, but instead encountered a series of heartbreaks that shattered her faith, leading her down a winding path of pain and self-discovery. Yet, through every tear, she learned invaluable lessons, and ultimately found the strength to redeem herself, emerging wiser, stronger, and ready to face the world anew.

Good Girls Cry, Bad Girls Moan—coming soon.

1 year ago | [YT] | 1

Lalita Janette

I am so proud of myself for giving it a try. It's just the beginning, and when I look back, I'll say, 'I always knew I would make it!' I love you.


"Thank you to my subscribers for watching, liking, and engaging with me. It keeps me believing. Thank you from the bottom of my heart."

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Lalita Janette

First flight: Istanbul to Singapore.
God, I had a good time.

The first time I flew business class was in 2019 from Korea to Jakarta.

My husband, who loves flying, encouraged me to fly business class, which I initially considered unnecessary.

We did, and since then, something shifted in me—how I saw the world and the possibilities within me.

As I took care of my well-being, I felt my dreams expand

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Off for our summer vacation in Asia, my husband and I have big plans to visit several islands in Indonesia.

First, we stopped over for a night in Istanbul before catching a long flight to Asia.

Here we go! I did some journaling, and look who got all the attention from a Turkish cat?

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I heard the call to write in the year 2018.
My writing skill sucks, and even now,
I know it’s far from perfect.
My mother tongue isn’t English,
but my ambition ignores it.
My journey wasn’t pleasant,
and sometimes I got a look down from a proud native English writer.
One of those bashful comments like this one here
got me out of the doubting myself loop
and put me on the path of pursuing
the art of word expression.
All due respect, but as you are an ESL speaker with unedited work- I say that not as a judgment. But based on the fact that your work is mostly in fragments and would be changed and red-fluffed in any grammar program.
(Comment from one of the academic level writers)
After a moment of confusion,
I realized the world needs an uplifting broken English message
more than an academic harmful opinion.
Therefore, I’m not gonna stop here
and let those bad mouths take over the show.
Watch me!

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