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Hi, I’m Eva (Ieva) — a Latvian-born creator based in the UK and a former Jehovah’s Witness of 22 years.

I share lived experience and psychological insight into high-control religion, alongside the impact of indoctrination on identity, relationships, and life after leaving.

As a Psychology with Counselling student, I explore themes such as conditioning, compliance, trauma, nervous system recovery, and rebuilding your sense of self and voice.

You’ll also find reflections on Baltic/Slavic heritage, spirituality, and personal transformation.

📖 My debut memoir, The Kingdom Hall Effect, is out now.
A lived-experience account of life inside Jehovah’s Witnesses — exploring control, belief systems, relationships, and the process of reclaiming identity after leaving.

Available on paperback & kindle:

amzn.eu/d/088bVo8l

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Unable to parse item

Invidious encountered an error while trying to parse this item. For more information see below:

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Title: `Missing hash key: "collectionThumbnailViewModel" (KeyError)`
Date: `2026-06-04T04:59:15Z`
Route: `/channel/UCTCmxkAwVOefIFAOs5W0Lvw/streams`
Version: `2026.02.07-118d635 @ (HEAD detached at v2.20260207.0)`

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<summary>Backtrace</summary>
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```
Missing hash key: "collectionThumbnailViewModel" (KeyError)
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/hash.cr:1198:9 in '??'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/json/any.cr:149:5 in 'process'
  from src/invidious/yt_backend/extractors.cr:524:17 in 'process'
  from src/invidious/yt_backend/extractors.cr:1035:17 in 'parse_item'
  from src/invidious/yt_backend/extractors.cr:1082:14 in 'extract_items'
  from src/invidious/channels/videos.cr:73:12 in 'get_60_livestreams:continuation:sort_by'
  from src/invidious/routes/channels.cr:127:34 in 'streams'
  from lib/kemal/src/kemal/route.cr:13:9 in '->'
  from src/invidious/helpers/handlers.cr:31:37 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/handler.cr:30:7 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/handler.cr:30:7 in 'call_next'
  from lib/kemal/src/kemal/filter_handler.cr:22:7 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/handler.cr:30:7 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/handler.cr:30:7 in 'call_next'
  from src/invidious/helpers/handlers.cr:80:12 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/handler.cr:30:7 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/handler.cr:30:7 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/handler.cr:30:7 in 'call_next'
  from src/ext/kemal_static_file_handler.cr:127:14 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/handler.cr:30:7 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/handler.cr:30:7 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/handler.cr:30:7 in 'call'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/http/server/request_processor.cr:51:11 in 'handle_client'
  from /usr/share/crystal/src/fiber.cr:170:11 in 'run'
  from ???
```
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