ֹ ۪ 𝖻𝗎𝗇 ׂ ׅ ꕮ

✿ ♡ simple but 𝑠𝑖𝑔𝑛𝑖𝑓𝑖𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑡 ꕤ

welc͟o͟me 𝗅𖹭ve ♫︎
l︵l︵l 𝚇𝙾𝚇𝙾 rib͟b͟o͟n͟s ☾︎

· ꒱ ˚ˑ ⍴rіᥒᥴᥱss . 𓈊 ┈
. ☁️ . ˚ ୨ৎ

^᪲᪲᪲ b𝑢n : p͟o͟o͟kie !

𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝖼𖹭smic c𖹭ded channel (≽^• ˕ • ྀི≼)

22𝗇𝖽 m͜͡𝖺𝗒 ㅤྀི

愛 . i am 𓋜
꒰ 🍥 ꒱ . 𝑤𝑖𝑖𝑤𝑖𝑖 !

View channel on YouTube

Switch Invidious Instance

Shorts

Posts

ֹ ۪ 𝖻𝗎𝗇 ׂ ׅ ꕮ

Hey everyone. ☁️

I honestly don’t even know how to start this properly, but I think I owe you all honesty. For a while now, I’ve been trying to act okay online and continue posting like nothing changed, but the truth is that things have been really difficult for me emotionally, and I’ve realized I need to step away for a while.

Recently, I went through a friendship breakup with someone who once meant the entire world to me — my best friend, my safest person, and the very first real friend I ever made through YouTube. Losing her has genuinely broken something inside of me in a way I still can’t fully explain. It hurts knowing that someone who used to be part of my everyday life, someone I laughed with, trusted with my feelings, and cared about so deeply, is now just a memory I keep replaying in my head. Sometimes I catch myself rereading old messages, remembering little moments that probably meant nothing to anyone else but meant everything to me, and realizing that those moments are all I really have left now.

I think what hurts the most is how suddenly people can become strangers after once feeling like home. I never imagined I would lose the first person who made me feel truly comfortable and understood on this platform. She was there during some of my happiest moments online, and now her absence is something I feel almost every day. It’s hard trying to explain the kind of pain that comes from grieving someone who’s still alive, someone you still care about deeply even after everything changed. A part of me still misses her constantly, and I think another part of me is still trying to accept that things will probably never be the same again.

And if I’m being completely honest, this friendship ending affected me more deeply than I ever expected it would. There were nights where I cried so hard I couldn’t sleep, moments where I stared at old messages for way too long hoping somehow things would go back to how they used to be. I cried over memories, over little things that reminded me of her, over the feeling of losing someone who once felt permanent in my life. I think one of the hardest things has been learning that sometimes people you love and care for deeply can slowly become distant, even when you never wanted things to end this way. I miss what we had more than I can explain, and I think a part of me is still grieving the friendship we once had and the person I thought would always stay. Even now, there are moments where I still cry, not because I’m angry, but because losing someone who meant so much leaves behind a kind of sadness that’s really hard to put into words.

A lot of people only see the posts, edits, uploads, and little happy moments online, but behind the screen I’ve been carrying sadness, exhaustion, and emotions I don’t really know how to put into words. I think I kept trying to ignore it because I didn’t want to disappoint anyone or seem weak for needing a break. But pretending I’m okay all the time is becoming harder and harder.

This channel and this community have genuinely been one of the biggest comforts in my life. Being ‪@bunwiiwii‬ gave me a place where I felt understood, supported, and less alone. Every kind comment, every message, every person who stayed here with me meant more than you’ll probably ever realize. That’s why making this post hurts so much, because I never wanted things to feel this heavy.
But right now, I need space to heal, think clearly, and slowly find myself again outside of the internet and outside of all the emotions I’ve been carrying. This isn’t an official goodbye, and I don’t want anyone to think I’m disappearing forever. I just need time away from everything for a little while.

Maybe one day I’ll come back feeling lighter, happier, and more like myself again. I really hope so. Until then, thank you for loving and supporting me through every version of myself, even the quiet and hurting ones.

I’ll miss you all more than words can explain.

Please take care of yourselves for me. 🥹

This was your Bun <3
Signing off...

1 week ago | [YT] | 36

View 4 replies

ֹ ۪ 𝖻𝗎𝗇 ׂ ׅ ꕮ

Life sucks but at least I've got her?!
Well I used to say that but now they're no way I can say that because she's no more mine to say mine ☹️🙏🏻

How can she look at me and pretend I'm someone she never met? Well that hurts more than someone can imagine because I know how much I've cried for her.

I even changed my iconic channel name to something else because that name reminds me of her so much and I keep on crying cuz I miss her so much and my parents keep on asking me what happened and why am I crying so much.

She thinks I don't care and sh¡ts but even after knowing she left yt a year ago I still write posts mentioning her that I miss her so much and that life was good when she was posting on yt.

Her bio still says "live,laugh,love bun" and a part of stupid me still keeps hope then maybe one day,she'll realise that she did wrong with me and unblock me and be friends with me again. 🥀

I know I mean nothing to you now but you still mean a lot to me and will always mean a lot to me.

I still cry for her a lot...

I still love you and miss you so much
‪@chqewinxx‬

3 weeks ago (edited) | [YT] | 21

View 2 replies

ֹ ۪ 𝖻𝗎𝗇 ׂ ׅ ꕮ

I'm officially wifeyless 🥀
Well uhm ☹️🙏🏻
(Long story)
So I've just got friends on yt now, not more than that.
I actually stopped believing in online friendships after what happened between me and my wife (I mean her).

1 month ago | [YT] | 17

View 27 replies

ֹ ۪ 𝖻𝗎𝗇 ׂ ׅ ꕮ

✿︎ ─── : 𝗁𝗂𝖾𝖾𝖾 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑡 🍇🦢💌

🫧 𓇼 𓏲 *ੈ. ✩ ‧ ₊ ˚ 🎐

𝖨 𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍𝖾𝖽 𝗍𝗈 𝗌𝖺𝗒 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝖨 𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗀𝖾𝖽 𝗆𝗂𝖾 𝖼𝗁𝖺n͟n͟e͟𝗅 𝗇𝖺𝗆𝖾 𝗂𝗇𝗍o ❛ 𝑏𝑢𝑛𝑤𝑖𝑖𝑤𝑖𝑖 ❜ 𝗌o 𝗇𝗈 𝗆𝗈𝗋𝖾 @F͜͡l͜͡o͜͡w͜͡e͜͡r͜͡A͜͡r͜͡e͜͡J͜͡i͜͡s͜͡o͜͡o͜͡ .
𝖨 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗇 𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗇𝗀𝖾𝖽 𝗆𝗂𝖾𝖾 d͟e͟s͟c͟r͟i͟𝗉𝗍𝗂𖹭𝗇 🎟️🪵

𝘣𝑢𝗇𝗇𝗂𝖾 :
l͜͡o͜͡g͜͡g͜͡i͜͡n͜͡g͜͡ o͜͡u͜͡t͜͡