Grief Sucks with Brooke Carlock

Hi everyone!! Just a quick note to apologize for the lack of live journaling videos...

It's a crazy time of year so I just need to pause them for a bit. Until then, I've got great Mourning Coffee Podcast interviews coming up and a few Thursday video uploads ready to go. ❤️

Hope everyone is hanging in there!

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Grief Sucks with Brooke Carlock

Thank you so much to the Resilient AF Podcast for allowing me to share my story and have a great conversation about compound grief!

https://youtu.be/1nEJ8kMFhF8?si=ALpZ9...

3 months ago | [YT] | 2

Grief Sucks with Brooke Carlock

Hey everyone! I am truly sorry, but I am feeling under the weather and have lost my voice, so I have to postpone The Mourning Coffee Podcast for this morning and I am canceling the journaling session for this evening.

Hopefully I will have a new video out this week and I will reschedule Dawn for a future interview!

Thanks for your understanding! ❤️🤒

3 months ago | [YT] | 12

Grief Sucks with Brooke Carlock

Hey guys! I've been thinking about leading a few workshops at some upcoming grief events. Do you have any recommendations for workshops that you would enjoy personally? What are some topics that you feel would be helpful for your grief?

4 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 4

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Journal with me LIVE tomorrow night (1/18) at 7pm EST!

5 months ago | [YT] | 12

Grief Sucks with Brooke Carlock

Thanks to ‪@MicThinksTiny‬ for having me back on the show to talk about the sale of my tiny house!

https://youtu.be/1rx_DhePeY8?si=_uBBK...

5 months ago | [YT] | 2

Grief Sucks with Brooke Carlock

It's finally here! I just posted a video tour of my renovated 1870 house if you'd like to check it out. It was a definite labor of love. ❤️🔨 Thank you so much for being patient with me during my absence...

New videos and episodes of The Mourning Coffee Podcast will start this week! I'm looking so forward to reconnecting with you all.

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Honestly… mind = blown. 🤯

To every single person who has watched, liked, shared, or just quietly listened while folding laundry ... THANK YOU. Your support means the world to me. It’s humbling (and slightly surreal) to know that my little corner of the internet has reached over half a million views.

Helping others through their grief has given my own life so much meaning and purpose, and I’m endlessly grateful I get to do this work. ❤️

And please stay tuned!! After I finish settling into my new house (and dig my recording gear out of the mountain of moving boxes ), I’ll be back to my regular schedule starting in October. We have a lot to catch up on and a lot more grief topics to share. I also have an amazing list of guests lined up for The Mourning Coffee Podcast, which will resume Monday, November 2nd!

As always, I'm sending love and hugs,
Brooke

9 months ago | [YT] | 16

Grief Sucks with Brooke Carlock

Please vote for Live Like Libby and share!! We have more scholarship applicants than ever and this money would help so much. ❤️🌈❤️ Let's keep Libby's legacy of kindness alive.

Go to: www.hartzpt.com/community/25th-grant-vote/.

Voting ends August 25th!

10 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 9

Grief Sucks with Brooke Carlock

HONESTY RANT:
You might have noticed that I've been a bit absent lately. There's a reason for that.

Several, actually.

But if I boil it all down, it comes to this: I'm having a hard time lately.

And because I've become somewhat of a public figure in the grief world, it's hard to admit that, because my goal is always to inspire other grievers. I mean, my whole motto is that your life doesn't have to completely suck after loss!

However, I also pride myself on being open, honest, and slightly irreverent when it comes to grieving... So in the spirit of full transparency, I should tell you that I have momentarily been wiped out by a "GRIEF SUCKS" tsunami.

It started when many wonderful people shared pictures and messages with me that there was FINALLY a stoplight being put up at the intersection where Libby died. This was GREAT news!!

But grief is WEIRD, my friends, so of course mixed in with my gratitude and relief that other families might be spared from our fate, there was sadness, and bitterness, and longing.

Next, it's Nationals week for Libby's dance studio, which means social media is flooded with pictures and videos of her teammates and friends doing what she loved but will never do again.

And then ... THE EFFING FLOOD in TEXAS. The world has been through some catastrophic shit since Libby died, but this one hit too close to home.

All those little girls. Dozens of daughters just like mine.

My heart has been breaking open daily for those families. I've been trying to limit my exposure to the news coverage out of self-preservation, but it's almost unavoidable.

But wait, there's more! If you've been following me you might know that I'm in the crazy process of renovating an old house. Well, I sold some cast iron radiators on Facebook Marketplace. The guy who came to pick them up brought his family, including his adorable 6-year-old daughter (difficult in itself). But imagine my surprise when our casual conversation came to an abrupt halt as he realized our connection.

"I was the firefighter who pulled Libby out of the car."

I was already doing a downhill slide, but those few words managed to unleash a grief avalanche:

- Nightmares.
- Constant rumination about the accident.
- Random bouts of tears.
- Headaches, upset stomach, exhaustion.

I basically just want to curl into a ball and sleep.

So there's my honesty post. I'm griefy and sad. I miss my daughter and it hurts. I know all the right things to do to take care of myself, and I'm trying. I know it won't stay like this forever, and there's solace in that. I don't feel hopeless... I'm just fucking sad.

And that's real. And it's ok.

(Picture is from a news article I just saw on FB from my local paper with Libby's memorial site on the front page. It's super fun just scrolling along and then seeing that with no warning.🙄)

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