my♡deerest

omg i feel like i just posted the last milestone and now there are already over 300 of you here … tysm for real 😭🤍

so i’m kinda sorry that i probably won’t be able to post much in the next weeks because i have a lot going on right now, but i’ll be back as soon as i can!!
and if there’s any content you’d like to see from me, feel free to let me know in the comments!! i’ll try my best to make it happen once i’m back

2 months ago | [YT] | 11

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tysm for 200 subs … actually 209 now 😭🫶🏼i really appreciate every single one of you, thank you for being here!!

also a little update on the heeseung videos, part 2 and 3 will be up soon!
part 2 is more of a reorganized version of my 1h compilation with the covers, so if you’ve already seen that one you can skip it if you want but part 3 will be all new, with weverse singing clips
ty again for all the support 🤍

2 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 10

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new video is up …
yesterday i went out and bought three of the “arirang” versions and unboxed them without knowing any of the inclusions. like i actually managed not to spoil myself 😭
i personally really love this album. i’ve always appreciated how they experiment with their music, and this one really reminded me why.
but let me know what you think about it!! and did you watch the comeback live? they did so well … and for once i didn’t cry sad tears but actually happy tears, especially during mikrokosmos. i missed seeing them perform together so much 🥺

and just to say … this doesn’t mean i’ve moved on from everything going on right now with heeseung and enha. i’m still just as sad and frustrated as before …
i’m also still working on the next parts of the heeseung appreciation series and i’ll try my best to get them out before i fall into exam stress soon!
i just wanted to appreciate something i’ve been waiting for, even while everything else still feels heavy and frustrating

2 months ago | [YT] | 4

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part 1 is finally up …
i’ve been sitting with a lot of emotions these past days, as many of us have, and i honestly didn’t really know how to deal with them. making this video was kind of my way of holding on to everything that means so much to me right now.
his voice … it’s something that stays. no matter what happens, it can’t just disappear. it’s in every song, every performance, every moment we’ve shared.
i think that’s why this part means so much to me. it’s a build-up from how their songs came to be, how he continued to grow with every comeback together with them, and how he supported them to get to where they are now. A place where he can really showcase himself alongside them, together.
i just really miss him … but i still believe somehow it’ll all work out in the end.
i hope you’re all doing okay 💙enha will always be 7

3 months ago | [YT] | 10

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sorry i haven’t posted anything the last two days. i’ve honestly been feeling really sick, not just mentally but physically as well. don’t worry though, i’m still very aware of everything that’s happening and all the new info and rumors. believe me, i can’t stop thinking about it for even a second and it’s really messing with me …
what makes it so hard is that there’s so much information everywhere, but no real way to know what’s actually true and what isn’t. everywhere you go online you’re reminded of the situation again and again (which is important, yes) but it’s also just a lot to deal with. all the unanswered questions, especially about how heeseung is doing right now, really get to me.

seeing little things like the members wearing his clothes and stuff … it just hurts
i’ll still make sure to answer your comments though. right now, especially with the weekend and not having much to distract me, my mind just keeps going back to it. and the people around me that i can talk to about this in person don’t really understand because they’re not into enha like that.
at this point i literally can’t leave the house without this guy (my cute little emotional support).
despite everything, i haven’t given up. if you can, please consider signing the petition: www.change.org/p/allow-heeseung-to-pursue-solo-act…
but please also take care of yourselves first and foremost. continue supporting the other six members while we keep fighting for heeseung.

#bringbackheeseung #ENHYPEN_is_7 #EnhypenIsSeven

3 months ago | [YT] | 11

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i just saw the statement reported by billboard and honestly… wtf belift ??
“We concluded that allowing Heeseung to focus fully on his career as a solo artist…” … we concluded?? what does that even mean? did Heeseung even get any real say in this? because the way this is worded just feels so wrong to me.
and them saying this was “planned for a while” also makes no sense. Nothing about this situation feels planned. everything about it feels sudden, nothing is adding up and it’s so freaking frustrating.
i also saw some screenshots from the fancalls and they all look so exhausted and sad … seeing them like that honestly hurts so much. i’m really thankful though that the engenes who attended were respectful and kind to them.
right now I’m just really worried about heeseung. i genuinely feel sick thinking about all of this.
i really hope he’s surrounded by people who care about him right now.

#ENHYPEN_is_7 #heeseung #enhypen

3 months ago | [YT] | 9

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engenes, i really hope all of you are okay and were at least able to get a little bit of rest. honestly, i’m still in denial and so frustrated with the lack of clarity about this whole situation … nothing about it feels right and it’s sooo hard to process.
i’ve been getting a few comments under my recent video thanking me for making it, and i honestly don’t even know how to deal with that right now. i’m really glad that some of you are able to find comfort in it, but at the same time i never imagined that this video would have to comfort people because something like this happened …
if any of you need to talk or just want to share how you feel, please feel free to do so here. we’re all going through this together!
but one thing I want to say clearly: any hate towards heeseung will not be tolerated. heeseung and the members are the ones suffering the most in this situation, and they deserve support, not blame. please remember that.
even though we want to cry (and trust me, i did 😔), we need to stay strong and support them. there are still so many questions and we deserve clarity. it’s still possible to change the situation.

#enhypen #heeseung #ENHYPEN_is_7

3 months ago | [YT] | 10

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spotify really wants to fxcking mess with me today …
i literally got into my car, connected my phone and the first freaking song that started playing was “calling“ from i-land, THE song that literally established enha as a group.
i just sat there like … are you serious right now? i genuinely can’t deal with this. it’s just so … omg i don’t even have the words for it.
everything already feels so sudden and out of nowhere and then that song of all songs starts playing. i swear i just sat there staring for a moment because what even is this timing. like wth…?

and just to say this clearly: even though i haven’t processed any of this yet, i will always support heeseung. please don’t bring hate here.

#enhypen #heeseung

3 months ago | [YT] | 5

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ahm… i just saw the announcement about heeseung parting with enha and what the fxck??? i’m actually in shock right now … heeseung is literally my ult and this is the last thing I expected to read today or ever??
like where did that even come from?? it feels so sudden. i was literally just about to leave my house and now I’m just standing here staring at my phone trying to process this. i genuinely don’t know what to say. this feels so unreal.
i love heeseung and enha sooooo much and i will always support them no matter what … right now I think we all just need a moment to breathe and process everything.
please let’s still respect their decision and continue supporting both enha and heeseung in the future. I’m honestly just… shocked? and surprised

#enhypen #heeseung

3 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 7

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wait … 100 subscribers?????
i just checked and had to look twice because when did that even happen 😭
thank you. like actually thank you!! i started this channel just to share my little storing videos without thinking too much about it … and now there are 100 of you here??
i really hope that in the future i can share even more with you, maybe some anime and manga content, different kinds of videos and just more frequent updates in general once things calm down a little in my life.
i appreciate every single one of you for watching, commenting or just quietly being here 🤍 tysm!!!

3 months ago | [YT] | 1