Not even sure if anyone remembers me but I had to take a hiatus!
After several years of fighting for my own time with my son, Kingston…it’s finally a reality. I was Unjustly subjected to years of the most restricting conditions after learning the harshest lesson of why nobody should ever self represent in family court. I endured years of being kicked while I was down in the worst of ways that I never even knew existed. This type of psychological abuse isn’t as well known as physical torture but is just as painful if not more and it’s happening everyday all over the world.
I had to find a way to come back from the dead. I had to find a way to go back to court and I barely made it. Often by the skin of my teeth and the grace of god I somehow found a way to change my life around completely, uproot what I had planted, overcome adult bullying, save enough money to retain a lawyer, move states away to be close to my boy, get a job and almost drown but find a career that afforded me oxygen before the water flooded over my head for too long. I had to find a way to survive in a place where I didn’t know a soul aside from my girl and the whole time I had to hold down a relationship with her - a loyal girl - which turned out to be the easiest part even though it seems to be one of the rarest finds, these days.
We came a long way for two people who both had nothing and touched rock bottom more than once. It was the longest excursion I’ve ever been on and one of the scariest..for so long not knowing whether you would ever get more than four hours a week with your only son, possibly having them completely stripped from your awareness and vice versa even though you two have only known love and laughter. waking up for years with a deep seeded sadness that feels like your soul screaming - left in a black abyss where there once was the light and illumination of life because you know that you’re missing 98 percent of your own lil man’s childhood days and I’ll never get those times back but it was all gods plan..i stay so grateful because I almost didn’t make it.
Like I said It was often by the skin of my teeth that I was able to afford what I could when I had to and I thank god this all came to fruition just weeks after he turned 7. He told me he wished for it on his birthday and now I get to tell him it worked..
This process took everything I had but I was willing to go broke, willing to make every payment and to pinch every penny, willing to skip meals and quit habits, cut out addictions and rearrange routines, willing to be patient and stay determined when someone tries eradicate every rose you got growing in the hope garden. willing to stop recording music for the first time in a decade and focus on something more important than passion. Being a dad…
Here’s a picture of me with a girl I was told would never stay with me in a state I was told I’d never move to on a day off from a job I was told I couldn’t get, in a car that I got clowned on for not having just months before..
Love always wins
The court order is in and in just two weeks I will be able to go pick up my best friend and go to the trampoline ninja course and get pizza
I’ll only be able to post a pic of us on my private fb page but I’ll be able to bring him to his grandparents house and get a picture of all of us together before it’s too late. I’ll be able to introduce him to my girl of 7 years who I couldn’t have done this without.
I’ll be able to listen to music with him and learn guitar with him. Go to the beach with him or get a new dog with him. Bring him to the fair and make our own memories together. These are all things that get taken from many people everyday for no good reason so please appreciate them if you have them now..I’ve always said gratitude is the key to happiness and it certainly got me through all the darkness.
Kingston, I never gave up on you! I love you so much and the sound of your laughter was always my gasoline. I always reminded you to have faith and keep believing! I promised you positive changes would happen if you pray for them and on this day in mid April 2026 it all came true.
It’s always when we get a bit of traction that IG erases us. First account with 21k followers after tech n9ne and king iso gave us a shout on lsdeleven and now they just deleted the BULLLEAF account with 6k followers. It’s the work I put in and the hours I spent and the people I won’t be able to promote the new music to that hurts the most. I believe they don’t want conscious music expanding. YouTube is the only platform that has allowed me to grow and I’m thankful for you all. I won’t be on Instagram at all anymore, clearly..but I will continue to make heart felt music that reminds you what they don’t want you to know, that you are all eternal spirits and extremely powerful, infinite beings that don’t need drugs or alcohol to feel whole. That we’re all way more than what is taught to us and that we are capable of anything if we unify with that belief system instead of feeling small and separate from each other. Thanks to anyone who has ever shared or listen to the BULLLEAF
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I just got word today, Motion Granted!
Not even sure if anyone remembers me but I had to take a hiatus!
After several years of fighting for my own time with my son, Kingston…it’s finally a reality. I was Unjustly subjected to years of the most restricting conditions after learning the harshest lesson of why nobody should ever self represent in family court. I endured years of being kicked while I was down in the worst of ways that I never even knew existed. This type of psychological abuse isn’t as well known as physical torture but is just as painful if not more and it’s happening everyday all over the world.
I had to find a way to come back from the dead. I had to find a way to go back to court and I barely made it. Often by the skin of my teeth and the grace of god I somehow found a way to change my life around completely, uproot what I had planted, overcome adult bullying, save enough money to retain a lawyer, move states away to be close to my boy, get a job and almost drown but find a career that afforded me oxygen before the water flooded over my head for too long. I had to find a way to survive in a place where I didn’t know a soul aside from my girl and the whole time I had to hold down a relationship with her - a loyal girl - which turned out to be the easiest part even though it seems to be one of the rarest finds, these days.
We came a long way for two people who both had nothing and touched rock bottom more than once. It was the longest excursion I’ve ever been on and one of the scariest..for so long not knowing whether you would ever get more than four hours a week with your only son, possibly having them completely stripped from your awareness and vice versa even though you two have only known love and laughter. waking up for years with a deep seeded sadness that feels like your soul screaming - left in a black abyss where there once was the light and illumination of life because you know that you’re missing 98 percent of your own lil man’s childhood days and I’ll never get those times back but it was all gods plan..i stay so grateful because I almost didn’t make it.
Like I said It was often by the skin of my teeth that I was able to afford what I could when I had to and I thank god this all came to fruition just weeks after he turned 7. He told me he wished for it on his birthday and now I get to tell him it worked..
This process took everything I had but I was willing to go broke, willing to make every payment and to pinch every penny, willing to skip meals and quit habits, cut out addictions and rearrange routines, willing to be patient and stay determined when someone tries eradicate every rose you got growing in the hope garden. willing to stop recording music for the first time in a decade and focus on something more important than passion. Being a dad…
Here’s a picture of me with a girl I was told would never stay with me in a state I was told I’d never move to on a day off from a job I was told I couldn’t get, in a car that I got clowned on for not having just months before..
Love always wins
The court order is in and in just two weeks I will be able to go pick up my best friend and go to the trampoline ninja course and get pizza
I’ll only be able to post a pic of us on my private fb page but I’ll be able to bring him to his grandparents house and get a picture of all of us together before it’s too late. I’ll be able to introduce him to my girl of 7 years who I couldn’t have done this without.
I’ll be able to listen to music with him and learn guitar with him. Go to the beach with him or get a new dog with him. Bring him to the fair and make our own memories together. These are all things that get taken from many people everyday for no good reason so please appreciate them if you have them now..I’ve always said gratitude is the key to happiness and it certainly got me through all the darkness.
Kingston, I never gave up on you! I love you so much and the sound of your laughter was always my gasoline. I always reminded you to have faith and keep believing! I promised you positive changes would happen if you pray for them and on this day in mid April 2026 it all came true.
See you soon.
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It’s always when we get a bit of traction that IG erases us. First account with 21k followers after tech n9ne and king iso gave us a shout on lsdeleven and now they just deleted the BULLLEAF account with 6k followers. It’s the work I put in and the hours I spent and the people I won’t be able to promote the new music to that hurts the most. I believe they don’t want conscious music expanding. YouTube is the only platform that has allowed me to grow and I’m thankful for you all. I won’t be on Instagram at all anymore, clearly..but I will continue to make heart felt music that reminds you what they don’t want you to know, that you are all eternal spirits and extremely powerful, infinite beings that don’t need drugs or alcohol to feel whole. That we’re all way more than what is taught to us and that we are capable of anything if we unify with that belief system instead of feeling small and separate from each other. Thanks to anyone who has ever shared or listen to the BULLLEAF
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6k in 3 Days! New Song: https://youtu.be/eOB79BsDKkI?si=0gWu4...
Thanks to whoever is vibing with us on it!
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This 1’z bubblin on IG: www.instagram.com/reel/C2Y0RG4sLu4/?igsh=MTl1b292Z…
Thank you for 8600 SUBMARINEZ
Rap Forever, Nothin Less! ⚓️
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Sum1 said this video gaveem goosebumps
www.instagram.com/reel/C10QcM9LRGS/?igsh=djJxc2ZyN…
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Dopest Hoodies of all time ONLY found at lsdeleven.com/ BET💵
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New Melter on Ig: www.instagram.com/reel/C1I0TfVsCSV/?igsh=MTg2ZXZya…
You wanna tap in this time!🔥
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The I Am You Hoodie! Check out the new track (Link Below) and bump the whole playlist at from or to work! #slaps
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LEcNIou...
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Thanks YOU guys for EIGHTY FIVE HUNDRED bic lighters in a dark stadium! That’s how I SEE it! We are picking up TRACTION. Straight out the milky way! 🪐
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First guitar rap ever (full version) https://youtu.be/e7mO565IaLg?si=Klop8...
LESSSSSSSSCOOOOOOOO💯🎧 #Letgo
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